| | Hey ya'll!
I can't remember when I've felt this crappy the last time.  My life just
sucks big time.  I'm torn up between two groups of friends and I don't
really belong to any one. Do u see the frozen flower on the left?
That's how I feel - just frozen. Since I changed schools, I haven't
hung out with my friends from my old school that often. They complain
that I never call or hang with them. Well, I don't just wanna go to
school without knowing anybody or having any friends, so I started
hanging out with ppl from my new school. Unfortunatly, my old friends
hate the ppl from my new school, so every time I hang out with them,
they tell me what a looser I am for changing schools. It just brings me
down and I don't know what to do. Have those guys ever been my friends
anyways, making fun of me all the time - maybe not, but I do know them
better and I had been hanging out with them a lot before I went to the
US. They party a lot while my new friends rather do other things
(playing pool or watching movies). Why is my life all f***** up? 
Anyways, let's change the topic. I just came back from the b-day party
of one of the girls from my old school. It's so sad.
I've had a crush
on her for quite a while, but she has been so busy all the time - I
always thought that she would never have time for a boyfriend. In
addition, she has always placed high demands on the guys she likes, so
I'm not good enough for her. Well,
she has been dating another guy she met at her fitness studio for a
couple of weeks now. At least, she is happy now. That's the only thing
that matters - it doesn't make any difference how I feel. Maybe I
should have at least tried it, but I'm just too shy to do
anything.  Sometimes, it's
so easy to get wasted and just forget all ur problems, but I didn't
wanna do that any more. I've been almost drunk the last two nights in a
row, but I know that drinking is no solution. What am I supposed to do?
That's it for now. Toodles!
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